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I was thinking it was time for another long emotion filled post.  So, here it is...

I have never gone through so many different emotions in the course of one week.  It's crazy, I don't know how I keep my head on straight.  Lets start one week from today.  I was increadably down, mostly I think cause I felt like no-one loved me, outside of family.  I hardly knew why God himself would want to love me.  I almost wanted to die, right then and there.  Then, Julie came along.  Without me mentioning at all the feelings not being unloved, she went and said, "before you get too down, know that I love you".  No-one outside of family had ever said that before.  Not that I can recall.  Certainly not recently.  I thought about this for a god long while that night as I cried myself to sleep.  I realised, God had answered one of my prayers.  I had asked for someone outside of family who would love me, who I could love back.  I kept looking for girlfriends, relationships, and all that, when my answer was sitting right in front of my face.  Love isn't necesarily having a relationship, friends can love eachother just as much.

I love you, Julie.

Next came this sudden flurry of mixed emotion, just this Monday.  I couldn't think straight at all, so many thoughts screaming at me.  I never felt so lonely, I'd never felt so good.  I can't be the only one misunderstood.  Ryan, Julie's brother, was such a comfort, such a good friend durring this time.  I wouldn't have made it without him.  I felt like someone else had invaded my mind, and like I was having a horible argument with him.  Like the one Lifehouse song...

I'm feeling like I'm chasing like I'm facing myself alone. 
I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head, I want some of my own.

God, I thank you for such friends as Julie and Ryan.  Bless their lives.

Now, as for now, I'm so confused.  Confused about girls and whatnot.  They can be so dang confusing, but then they feel the same towards us.  Anyways, not a lot to talk about there, maybe a later blog.

-Cassus

WOOOOHOOOOO

Yeah, you heard me.  I did just say "WOOOOOHOOOOO".  Yes, I did acctually shout it when I was at home too.  Why, you ask?  I'll tell you why, punk.  Oorah I'll tell you why!

Teresa accepted my invitation to go to the M88 prom with me, as friends.

*crickets*

Oh don't give me the crickets again.  Yeah.  I remember telling you guys, and what do I hear? Crickets.  No, "Wow, Anthony, I'm so excited for you."  No, "Dude, that's tight!"  Nope.  I either heard dead silence, or a short "oh..."  Yeah, that's depressing.  Now my internet friends, like Julie, Epy, Ryan, Henry, they were all like, "Sweet! That's awesome bud!"  or "Great!  I was praying God would keep you from being nervous, looks like He did!"

[SARCASM]...Thanks a lot, oh buddie buddies.[/SARCASM]

Now my internet friends, thanks for rejoicing with me, while I rejoice.  Thanks for mourning with me, while I mourn.
Thanks for being there, for being friends, good friends.

God's blessings be upon you.

-Cassus

Asa is a DORK!!!

Yes, you heard me.

ASA IS A DORK!!!! XD

Also, I feel much better, thanks for your prayers.

I repeat, ASA IS A DORK!!!

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